Cant Be Together

Why is it..
That we can never remain friends?
We were so close when we were together.
I thought of you as my best friend,
But now that we are no longer a couple,
It seems as if we’ve lost our trust,
Our trust in each other and our love.
You say you want to be good friends,
But how can you think that I would hurt you,
Or tell your secrets,
That you told me while we laid in each others arms.
I wouldn’t and couldn’t ever hurt you,
I can’t be mad at you because it hurts to much,
It hurts not to hear your voice,
Or not to see your face.
I miss you but I try to put you out of my mind,
So that my heart won’t ache anymore.
I wish I didn’t care so much,
I wish I didn’t miss you.
But I do.
And I try to deny it,
And I try to pretend I don’t care,
But I do.

Confused Heart

Do you think it’s possible for a heart to cry?
Do you think I could just turn the truth into a lie?
Do you believe to leave the past behind?
Do you believe you can see but still be blind?

Can you change one thing to another?
Can you make a person lose some other?
Can your heart scream before your lungs?
Can you sing but your words stay unsung?

Can you can laugh but feel no joy?
Can you can feel great but still destroy?
Do you know how to put on a mask?
Do you believe in a simple task?

Can you think but not know?
Can you say yes but still say no?
Can you speak but not say?
Can you be honest and still betray?

I Love U

The day I needed someone most,
I turned and saw you there.
I opened up and let you in.
Even though deep down I was scared.


I was such a mess.
My life had fallen apart,
But slowly- piece by piece,
You put together my broken heart.


Even though I swore I'd had it,
I would never love again,
Deep in my heart I knew,
You were more than just "my best friend."


I don't know what i would do without you,
Or if I'd even be here today.
I pray that you will never leave
And with me you'll always stay.


Because I love having you by my side.
I no longer feel alone.
I never want to be without you,
For my heart has found its home.

I love you.

Frozen Heart

My heart is frozen

completely still

I've tried to escape it

and one day will

My heart is frozen

but I'm still alive

you can't look at me

and see what's inside

My heart is frozen

all feelings have disappeared

it's the one and only thing

I have always feared

My heart is frozen

I'm stuck in a stage

where depression takes over

and all I feel is rage

My heart is frozen

i cannot cry

each tear becomes solid

one drop at a time

My heart is frozen

completely still

I've tried to escape it

but never will

Confused Love

Love is for those who care
hate is for those who hate
friends are those who will be there till the end
parents are those to say never be late
You said you loved me because you cared
but at the same time you said you hated me
as long as your there i will never leave
Why do u make me mad?
Make me sad?
Make me cry?
Make me wanna die?
You say u love me
then u play games with my heart
and eventually tear it all
you said u would always love me
I thought it was true
but all it was was u being you
I will always love you no matter what
this may be true
even though u always turn me with no clue.

Who am i ?

Who Am I ???????
I'm empty inside Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
I need an escape To be all alone
Far far away from all that I know


Afraid of the dark, afraid of the light
Afraid of the day, afraid of the night
Don't get too close
I'll push you away
Don't understand the words that I say
I'm sinking and drowning


Afraid of the ocean, afraid of the shore
Afraid of the ceiling, afraid of the floor
I look to the left and look to the right
I look in the mirror I'm high as a Huge kite


And finally it's clear
And finally I see I know who I am,
I'm only running from me

Last Word

Sitting in silence,

In the middle of the night, 

Not able to sleep, 

Because of our stupid fight.  

Love now lost, 

So much pain, 

Its not all about you, 

Dont be so vain.  

I dont know what to say 

My feelings are mixed, 

Im wondering if ever, 

Things will be fixed.

I was so sad, 

As you walked out the door, 

Our relationship broken, 

But I couldnt take any more. 

I didnt want us to end, 

I want you to know, 

Ill always love you, 

But cant let it show.

Its too complicated, 

And will always be, 

I love you a bit, 

But you cant be with me. 

I have to tell you, 

I believe in fate, 

Im waiting for god, 

To find my sole mate.  

I know Im crazy, 

Even insane, 

But I believe in this, 

And have no shame. 

Im so sorry, 

Im not right with you, 

Now Im saying goodbye, 

What else can I do?

I tried To Be SomeOne

I Tried Too Hard
to be noticed,
I tried to be someone
I was not;

waiting and waiting
I watch time slowly tick away
as another day dawns
I watch the world scurry around;

I wanted to be someone,
I wanted to be famous,
I wanted life and
I wanted love;

I wanted a lot of things
that were out of reach
as I sink in slowly
under the weight of expectations;

I tried to be what they
wanted me to be,
I tried to be what I was
not meant to be;

I tried too hard
I pushed too far
and I went too far;

with a forced smile,
and a fake laughter
to cover my tracks
I escape into the shadows
and try to fight this one out,
all alone

My dream

Once, when in my deepest thought

With my eyes closed tight for a

while I dreamed of a girl who loved me madly,

She brightened my life with her passionate love

And pierced my soul with her spear

When she touched me, I felt it so soothing

As she whispered 'I love u my dear'.

Her fingers gently combed my hair

And she taught me the meaning of love

As she shared her beautiful treasures with me

My heart began fluttering like a dove,

It was then that I knew for certain,

I really was truly in love.

When I woke up It was just but a dream

And my heart was filled with much sorrow

Of course its not the end,

because there's always another tomorrow.