You Turn To HURT

When I first saw you,
I thought you were too good to be true,
The innocent look in your eyes,
Made me realize I loved you,
For days I acted perfect to see if you liked me too,
You started flirting and I thought,
It must be too good to be true,
And it was,
Who ever thought some one like you could hurt me so bad,
I saw you flirting with other girls,
I didn’t know what to do,
I loved you,
We became friends and I was so happy,
But one day you told me you hated me,
That very moment my heart shattered,
I wanted to cry,
But not in front of you,
So I ran home,
And that night I cried a million tears,
I hope you are happy now,
I don’t care about anything or anyone now,
All because of three words,
Well now its your turn to hurt,
Your turn to cry,
Your turn to live your life just wishing you would die,
I hope these words make your life totally blue,
‘I hate you’

The best of friends, yet we've never met.

The toughest times you've seen me through,
The best of friends, yet we've never met.
The tears we've shared I will not regret,
My greatest sorrows you helped subdue,
All the angels on the internet

You've stood by my side, I will not forget,
No other friends have been as true,
The best of friends, yet we've never met.

The healing's begun, but not done yet,
As through our pain, our hope we renew,
All the angels on the internet.

We've grown in strength, we'll not be upset,
Glorious new dreams we now pursue,
The best of friends, yet we've never met.

Your reward in heaven a coronet,
The glory of love is surely your due,
All the angels on the internet,
The best of friends, yet we've never met.

Time to Leave

I got a rope around my neck
Two knives in my hands
Ready to end this
Ready to leave this land

All hope is gone
All dreams blown away
Nothing to live for
Nothing to gain

I tried to find away out
Tried to make it all right
But feelings like this
Don't go away over night

Still thinking theses thoughts
Still playing theses games
Were the only way to win
It to cause yourself pain

Its just who I am
But not who I want to be
But its hard to hide
The real me

I've tried to lock her up
But she always breaks free
She's always by my side
Always haunting me

So now I'm hanging of a deck
Rope around my neck
Blood down to my knees
Its getting hard to breath

As my life flashes by
I finally realize
This is not the way
I want to die

I cut the rope
I fall to my knees
Tears in my eyes
Trying hard to breath

I pray to the lord
Asking for help
But I cant do this
I'm done I'm out

I pick up my gun
Put it to my head
Say my last words
And boom I'm dead

Dont Fall In love

Have you ever fallen in love,
but knew they did not care?
Have you ever felt like crying,
but knew you'd get no where?

Have you ever watched them walk away,
not wanting them to go?
And whispered "I love you" softly.....
not wanting them to know,
you cried all night in misery
and almost went insane.

There's nothing in this world
that causes so much pain.
If I could choose between love and death,
I think id rather die.

Love is fun but hurts to much
and the price you pay is high.
So I say don't fall in love
you'll be hurt before its through
you see my friend I ought a know
I've fallen in love like you!

Miss u

No words I write can ever say,

How much I miss you every day.

As time goes by the loneliness grows,

How I miss you... nobody knows.

I think of you in silence,

I often speak your name.

But all I have are memories,

And a photo in a frame.

No one knows my sorrow,

No one sees me weep.

But the love I have for you,

Is in my heart and mine to keep.

I never stopped loving you,

I don't think I ever will.

Deep inside my heart,

You are with me still.

Heartaches in this world are many,

But mine is worse than any.

My heart still aches as I whisper low,

"I need you... and miss you so."

The things we feel so deeply,

Are often the hardest things to say.

But I just can't keep quiet anymore,

So I'll tell you anyway.

There is a place in my heart,

That no one else can fill.

I love you... and I always will.

Unhappiness One Aspect Of Life

Some nights I stay up late and cry,
Other times I feel as if I could die!
In my life I feel not loved,
I always get kicked around or shoved.
But why should I be happy?
How can I be if I'm treated so crappy?
Every day seems like a battle.
I get thrown around like a baby's rattle.
Sometimes everything can be so scary.
Why can't I just be happy and merry?
For all my faults, I am to blame.
I am the one to take all the shame.

Loneliness

Loneliness is blue like sadness.
It tastes like a sour lime with salt on it.
It smells like rotten food and causes madness.
For fun it likes to do nothing but bad things.
While almost everything makes it angry
Everything makes it sad,
But nothing makes it happy.

Loneliness is smaller than you and me,
But bigger than peoples' minds.
Happiness is its enemy,
But nothing can be its friend.
Loneliness keeps its happy feelings in a secret place.
Its favorite place is in peoples' minds.
But it hates to be anywhere else.
Making people feel bad is its greatest success.
Not cheering people up it is greatest failure.
Loneliness makes me feel as sad as a deserted island.

New Beginning a Better Life

I lived day by day,
Telling myself things will get better.

My life I tried to end,
'cause life to me seemed hopeless.

A new beginning you gave me,
A second chance at life.

Dead ends kept following me,
No matter how hard I tried.

Every time I tried to die
That unborn picture came to mind.

Seeing you suck your tiny thumb,
Seeing you yawn in my sister's womb,
Made me realize I need to live.

I cried in fear, "What should I do?"
That picture came to mind,
That picture of you.

A new beginning you gave to me,
Now you are here.

You let me taste the life,
The life I tried so hard to end.

Now I share my breath with you,
And hold dear to the memories we've shared,
And will continue sharing in the times ahead.

I thank you now for giving me
A new beginning - a better life.

Nobody becoming somebody

It's gone
What's gone? My mind?
Soul? No, I'm fine
Not really
Deep inside, something is missing
The love and tender kissing
She walked out herself
Now all I do is talk to myself
in the mirror, with my reflection
My heart is dead
Soon it will make a resurrection
Once the wounds heal
And I'm loved for real
A type of love I can feel
But nobody loves me
Nobody cares
Nobody loves me
That nobody is me
I can't love myself because no one does
I'm all alone and no longer what I once was
But the only thing that keeps me alive
Is knowing that the next day, it might all change
For the best
And that "nobody" becomes somebody